One thing I look forward to about being in an established relationship is that I won’t have to feel guilty for being attracted to someone.
For the past several years, I constantly have anxiety and feel really guilty whenever I like a girl. It has never worked out, and when people feel hurt, confused, or awkward because I liked someone, it felt like it was my fault. So I always feel really anxious, self conscious, and just guilty, whenever i feel feelings of attraction to someone. It just feels wrong for me, or someone like me, to like someone, like I am something putrid or profane. I can’t stop it. It’s probably not right to feel like that for liking a person, but I just can’t stop feeling that way. It is probably going be such a relief when I have a girlfriend?
Anyways, Killian’s Irish Red and Blue Moon are my friends tonight -.-
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(ノ*゜▽゜*) Thanks Chelsea!!
1. Most of my friends would describe me as their craziest friend, and I like that.
2. I like my natural wavy-ish Asian hair.
3. I love that as a Chinese American, I am a cultural hybrid. While it has its pros and cons, It makes me adept to learning and adapting to new cultures.
4. I can make friends with unpopular/outcast/weird people easier than the average person, and I think I like that.
5. I have not given up, and I like that.
Let’s just blame this all on my underdeveloped limbic system, shall we?
sooo. I’m not taking any classes this semester. I may have to start repaying my loans now, as I’m waiting to hear back from other schools I want to transfer to. I’m 25. I just want a degree :(
I’m whining and whining won’t help.
It actually feels… no good to not be in class too. I’m actually kind of jealous people who get to go to class now. I guess for what it’s worth I finally learned to appreciate school.. sighh
I decided this because I’ve burned through too much money already, and I’ve taken already taken ALL of the education and biology classes the Community College has to offer.. Randomly learning a spanish, dance, art, or writing class, as awesome as it would be… as fun as it would be, as challenging as it would be…. doesn’t seem worth it at this time :\
also, I have a lot of other stuff to sort out. Gotta find a new apartment and new school to complete undergrad..
So basically, I have 24 hours left to decide if I want to take a class or two at Community College this semester… The problem is, that I have already taken all the education courses they have to offer, and already taken most of their biology courses as well.
So for the past several days I’ve been considering random, left field, probably not academically useful classes… Spanish, Arabic II, 2-dimensional design, retake a chemistry class I previously botched, Dance?, or Creative Writing/Fiction Writing…
my boss is pissed at because I’m essentially only giving them a one day -advance warning before I actually take the classes…
what should I do?